Fuzz-brained, but learning

It has been a while since I have blogged. Recently, I have been working more on survival. From time to time, the balance that keeps my seizures in check gets thrown off. It can be thrown off a little or a lot. So far this go-round, it has only been thrown off a little. I have had some dizzy spells and I have been really tired. I'm hoping that's all this is, and that it isn't a precursor to something worse. I am craving creativity, but my brain is having a hard time processing much of anything. I get rather fuzz-brained when my body goes into this mode. I have been reading a lot and napping on the couch a lot. I have also been working on winding the hulking masses of yarn my sister got for me into balls - that works better than the skeins they come in when you go to knit. I have been trying to figure out a pattern to make a sweater for myself out of the yarn. I am hard to fit - I have a long torso, long arms, and unusually broad shoulders for a woman. I have a book that basically walks you through how to create your own sweater pattern based on your measurements, and I am working on getting the ideas in the book into my head so I can do that. I am excited to try it, even if I do feel rather fuzz-brained while I try to figure it out. I am also feeling withdrawal symptoms from writing. I haven't written much in a while - not even morning scribbles. This morning was the first time in a while. Writing is sanity for me, and it's amazing how easily I forget that. It is also amazing that I fall into the same pattern of forgetting over and over again. It reminds me of the pride cycle in the Book of Mormon. I need to be more consistent and humble about my writing, just as I need to be more consistent and humble about maintaining my spiritual health. It all fits together and makes sense. I just need to quit being a dodo head and stick with stuff better. I guess that is part of being mortal and fallible - in the process of learning and growing.