not meds - now what?

Well, it wasn't my meds that were off. I'm not really sure what it was. - maybe J's sinus infection and temporary sleep apnea throwing me off. I have had a lot of stuff going on that leaves me feeling really discouraged. We need a new range; ours is dying. I am still tired, and the best I can figure is that it has to do with allergies and lack of rest. J has had to work really hard, and I am just hoping that things will change soon so he doesn't have to. I have felt off and fuzzy-brained enough that I haven't gotten much writing done. I have just been napping and subsisting. I was crying a lot last night and this morning because I don't feel like I do enough to pull my own weight; I feel like a burden on those around me. I feel like it is the middle of winter again and I don't have any access to sunshine. I've been trying to write and knit and find aid in my creative outlets, but that is harder to do when I feel so fuzzy-brained. It is hard to concentrate. I have been reading more, which is something. I tend to have a harder time reading for long periods of time because my memory makes it harder to keep track of what I've read. I have been reading shorter pieces and stuff where the story line isn't as hard to follow. That is helping some. I am ready for some resolution or change soon, though. I feel like I have been at the end of my rope just hanging on for a while now.